Twenty-seven days into the new year, I am sad to admit that I have been a real failure at trusting God. Such a failure, in fact, that my own worry woke me up at 3 o’clock this morning, threatening to overwhelm me. After a restless period of relying on my own strength to conquer my struggles, I had a “come to Jesus” moment. Kneeling on the rough carpet beside my dorm bed, I prayed the prayer of surrender that I seem to repeat regularly.
When I first typed that previous sentence, I was ashamed to admit that I have to surrender so often, that I never truly keep my promise of surrender. However, I had a thought just as my pinky finger was hitting the period. I should not be ashamed that I have to repeatedly surrender; in fact, I should surrender more often. Luke 9:23 says to surrender daily, but it seems that I only remember to surrender when I have to “reach up to touch rock bottom.” Even daily surrender would be too seldom for my wayward mind.
I think one reason I have trouble letting God have control is that I like things to happen on my own agenda. God, however, does not have to follow my plans. He, as my Creator, is not answerable to me. My independent heart does not like to admit that I cannot even take a breath unless He has given it to me. In truth, He knows better than I do, and I need to embrace this fact. He addresses all of eternity, but I can only see a finite moment.
10 Reasons I can Trust God
1. He cares for me.
– Peter 5:7, “Casting all your cares upon Him, for He cares for you.”
2. He knows me better than I know myself.
– Psalm 139:1-2, “O Lord, you have searched me and known me! You know when I sit down and when I rise up; you discern my thoughts from afar. You search out my path and my lying down and are acquainted with all my ways.” (Can we just take a moment and marvel at the fact that God knows our worrisome thoughts “from afar off”? Before I know what to worry about, God has a solution to my problem.)
3. He has never failed.
– Numbers 23:19, “God is not man, that he should lie, or a son of man, that he should change his mind. Has he said, and will he not do it? Or has he spoken, and will he not fulfill it?”
4. His grace is sufficient.
– II Corinthians 12:9, “But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ ” (I learned this week in one of my classes that the ultimate purpose of history is glorifying God. Therefore, it is better for me to be weak because it gives God a chance to show His power.)
5. He commands me to quit worrying.
– Philippians 4:6, “Do not worry about anything. Instead, pray about everything, always giving thanks.”
6. Worry will get me no where.
– Matthew 6:27, “And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?”
7. Nothing is impossible for God.
– Luke 1:37, “For nothing will be impossible with God.”
8. Nothing and no one can stand against God.
– Romans 8:31, “If God is for us, who can be against us?”
9. He loved me enough to die for me.
– John 15:13, “Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends.”
10. He is God. He has made us, and we are His.
– Psalm 100:2 “Know that the Lord, he is God! It is he who made us, and not we ourselves. We are his people, and the sheep of his pasture.”
Over two hours later, as I finish typing this post and try to not think about the precious sleep I have lost (I have to get up for work in a hour!!), I think of the Apostle Peter on the Sea of Galilee. Often, he gets a bad rap for losing faith as he was walking on the water with Jesus. I have to wonder, though, if I would have even gotten out of the boat. Compared to the waves, the boat was comfortable, solid, and safe. On the boat, he didn’t have to admit his inability to stay afloat on his own. However, Peter was in the safest place imaginable when he stepped off that boat because he was trusting in the Savior alone to keep him afloat. As life’s waves toss me about, I often feel like I am drowning and struggling to grab gasps of air. I will only fully surface when I begin to trust God.
I have come to the conclusion that worry is truly an entangling sin that disguises itself as independence, strength, and knowledge. Worry cannot be trusted.
God is faithful. He is just. He is trustworthy.
“Trust in the Lord with all thine heart, and lean not on thine own understanding. In all thy ways, acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths.” – Proverbs 3:5-6